Wednesday, July 28, 2010

If i wasn't asian

If I wasn't a Chinese born person, or at least didn't wear those stupid, geeky glasses and didn't have retarded fucking parents to raise me and brainwash me for the most of my life, I'd be much happier than before. No asian has ever been prime minister or president of the states or canada, though it's funny cause around 60% of North America is populated with Asian people. I don't hate my own race 100%. I just hate the fact that most of the Asian people I have met have extremely weird habits and attitude problems, which in turn may have a detrimental effect on me. I wish that all races would be just as strong as each other, with the same strengths at the same, optimum level because it'll make every race very competent, and respected. If only the majority of Asian people were as tall and big and strong as black people, popular as white and blacks, and if only they were more accepting of other cultures and not so fuckin arrogant and cowardly. All those stereotypes bestowed on Asians may or may not be true. It's true, for example that the majority of Asians are very intelligent, and value work ethic. It's true that the most of them are not as fluent in English compared to their western counterparts ( at least the ones I have met). It's also true that their parents are like Denizens of the underworld who have them in their fullest custody and under their fullest watch, and it's true that most of em are small, and unathletic ( thank god i'm not like that anymore. I love sports, workin out and fighting). I was momentarily in disbelief when I had heard or read of these stereotypes, but realized the versimilitudeness behind those so called, "claimed facts."

Has an asian man or woman ever won an oscar award for best actor or actress, or supporting actor or actress? Yes, but they rarely ever get nominated for awards, proving the lack of fine acting in Asian cinema ( most of em are martial arts flicks or stupid horror movies. I look up to actors who are white, black and even middle eastern, why? cause they can act and SPEAK MORE FLUENT ENGLISH). Has an asian man or woman ever won major sporting championships, or have they been considered proficient contenders of sports and leagues such as hockey, baseball, football, soccer, basketball? There has never been an Asian MVP in basketball ( yao is shit now), baseball ( ok, matsui and ichiro suzuki, but who else?), soccer, and speaking of hockey, I've never even heard of an Asian player. If there is an existing Asian player, why hasn't he or she been to the all star game, and why hasn't he won the MVP award? And lastly, why are there no Asian fighters or boxers who are actually famous? Manny Pacquiao is Asian, and i have the utmost respect for him, but that's it. The entire boxing and fighting, and wrestling, and olympic circuits have been majorly dominated by americans, caucasians, black people and even middle easterns such as Amir Khan. My parents and many other imbeciles who've I've encountered say that Asians are the hardest working, and it's true but they never learn anything from what they do. They work and act like robots, and they work in low paying jobs, or have still not met the standards of living as a Canadian. Asians are the smartest? last i heard, Stephen hawking and albert einstein were some of the smartest people, same with John Nash, and famous scholars and philosophers such as Socrates, have been more influential to people than any other asian person like Sun Tzu ( pronounced sin zu by the way).

So, until Asian people begin to accept and assimilate themselves into the western cuture, those listed characteristics and stereotypes will live on. Only the asians who are actually competent and understanding enough to actually do something useful with their lives socially, physicall and romantically as well as intellectually will be content with their overall lives and famous and well-respected. Asians restrict their children from many extra curricular activites which they " believe" is "dangerous," why? Because they have no adequate background knowledge on the things they are worried about thanks to their censorship system. And until they begin to adapt to a more modern style of living, I will never look at them at a different way. I appreciate that they have their own unique culture and language and beliefs, but every other culture has that as well ( don't say white ppl don't have their own languages, because Europeans can speak many tongues, and people living in parts of africa such as Senegal have their own languages such as Afrikaans and French). It's really time for Asians to be more open minded, and to appreciate and express much interest in being a part of the Canadian way of life, and other cultures and activities in general. Peace.

Yang's tribute

This right here, will be a tribute to all humans who have lived on the face of the earth, and have been significant and helpful to everyone else inhabiting this planet, for the sake of them having a better quality of life. Let's begin with our parents, the ones who made dedicated sacrifices, who worked their butts off day and night, and have had to stress and worry themselves, and have had to make tough decisions for the sake of us, to have a better quality of living and to be happier overall. The ones who had to move here to Canada under the harshest of all conditions, and have had to observe the most grotesque of horrors,and face the worst of the worst in terms of discrimination, violence and hardships with others. This is a tribute to the firemen, policemen, soldiers, scholars, scientists, businessmen, actors, actresses, doctors, nurses, politicians, advocates, musicians, and athletes who have blessed our earth and media and have influenced our ways of thinking and living, and have made this world a better place for many overall. There are those who made a difference to mankind such as Martiin Luther King and Mother Teresa, and there are those who are making a difference such as Craig Kielburg, and David Suzuki, and those who have wowed us in awe on the screen every time we go to watch a film or tv show such as daniel day lewis, and those who have made television shows unique. Those who have inspired us physically, such as kobe bryant, michael jordan, wayne gretzki, muhammed ali, mike tyson, and those who have inspired us mentally such as Albert Einstein. Those who have risked their safety and lives to protect their countries all around the world, The soldiers in afghanistan, middle east, and around the world training and vowing to protect their families and countries, the strong men and women in navies, in the air force and in the police and the swat team, and CIA who go beyond their best efforts to protect our country within, and the ones who have died doing so.

This is for the victims of rape, crimes, hate, racism, murder, robberies, and other forms of discrimination, and the victims who had a chance to go far in life, and the ones who had been low in life, but had the chance to change. This is for the black people, who have faced unmentionable and unspeakable forms of hatred for thousands of years by the whites and other races, and have had to live every day of their life in fear and in slavery, and have had to suffer great measures of pain for the dumbest and most incoherent reasons, and the black people who have fought hard and rose up for their race to show that all that was extremely stupid and wrong, such as Harriet Tubman, Martin Luther King and Malcolm X. This is for the Asian people, my people, who have and are seen as being inferior in every way, who have been ignored, abused, and ridiculed for hundreds and hundreds of years, who have risked their damn lives and safety building Canada's Railroad ( if it weren't for us, you canadians would've been fucked, so thank us because you haven't given us recognition at all), and the ones who have been brutally murdered, beaten and slain due to their appearances, and the ones who have had to work so hard to make a living in this country, and the ones who have rose up to prominence in terms of education and intellect, and the ones who impacted our society and contribute to this society, and the ones who aren't afraid to go up to the racist white, black, middle eastern men and tell them that what they say is wrong. This is for the asians who have made efforts to be proficient in everything they do, and have dominated almost everything that there is today. This is for the Middle Easterns, the ones who are poorly misjudged, the ones who have such unique indentities and cultures, the ones who have to fear for their lives every day living in the Middle east because of what those american, canadian and european soldiers are doing to them behind the media's backs. The ones who made us laugh and cry, such as Russell peters and the actors and actresses of bollywood and slumdog millionaire, and the ones who have impacted our music industry, the ones who have fought for world peace and died for world peace such as Mahatmas ghandi, and the ones who are still fighting for world peace. There are those who are extremely efficient athletes, and those who are boxers and respected by me ( Amir khan, best middle eastern boxer. Muhammed Ali and Mike tyson, 2 of the greatest Islamic boxers of all time). There are those who have suffered so much and so many forms of discrimination, and those who have been detained and accused of being " terrorists" when the americans are the ones who are terrorizing the thousands of Iraqi civilians day in and day out.

And lastly, let me pay tribute to the white people. The white people were the ones who had the greatest influence on the earth, and myself. They're the ones who are necessities of this planet, the scholars, artists like michaelangelo, discoverers, athletes like michael phelps and larry bird and wayne gretzki and dan marino, explorers like Marco Polo, geniuses like albert einstein, and the countless actors and actresses who have made it so big in holleywood such as Tom hanks, Daniel day lewis, and the beautiful and independent women who have fought vigourously for their rights and identities as "persons" such as Emily murphy, and the ones who are so accepting of the cultures of the human race, and the ones who serve us around the world, and the ones who served in WW1 and WW2. Let me also pay tribute to those who we see as being disadvantaged and handicapped, the ones with lethal conditions and disabilities, and the ones who have had to live every day of their lives in solitude and fear around the world, and go home or to sleep hungry, uneducated, beaten, and without their parents and family or friends to say to them, " good night." The ones who have been ridiculed and insulted due to their mental and physical disabilities, who are only just trying so hard to fit in, but can't because they are so unfortunate to be in the states they're in. No human being wants to be born or end up like that, and no one should yet people all around the globe still do nothing to help them, and instead put them in the spotlight of discrimination and ridicule. For the ones who still live, let God or whatever you believe in help you through your life, and for the ones who have died, yet made no impact or have made significant impacts on society, May you rest in peace and never be forgotten, ever. Amen.

The more you know, the less interested you become? Really?

For many of us, there are times in our lives where something significant happens, and we just tell ourselves, " i gotta find out what happened before it's too late!" And we vow to go behind the scenes and dig up whatever information we can get about what we want to know. Whether it's a mysterious and unusual murder or crime, a significant event or happening such as a rumour or a signing, or a certain characteristic of a person or thing, we become tempted and curious, and want to ask why, how, when, what, who or where. It's the same with relationships. When you ask someone if they have a girlfriend or boyfriend, and they respond, "yes." You would typically follow up with the question, " who?" And when that person doesn't answer, this sense of urgency and anxiousness rises up within, and you pester that person and pepper them with questions until you get an answer. And when you do get an answer, you become less interested, and sometimes you ask yourself, " why did I ask that? How lame!"
In a way, I believe humans are meant to be mysterious and inconspicuous. They shouldn't expose much about themselves, and should remain secretive about things, because it'll make things much more interesting. Some things are just better left unexplained and unknown, because it causes and stabilizes that feeling of anxiousness and curiosity, and causes people to be vastly obsessed and interested in that certain topic or answer they're looking for. Imagine, if every mystery on the earth were to be solved. There would be no need for certain theories, and all those subjects which require research and deep thinking would be.. obsolete and useless, such as philosophy or religion.

So, the next time you encounter an unusual occurance, you might as well leave it as be, and let your vivid imagination do the work and thinking for you, because that is what thinking is for, and it is a really good thing to expand your imagination and your thinking overall, because this may, in turn, enhance creativity, the one thing which makes us humans so unique. Peace

My non-contemporary mind

I do not know what it exactly is, but it seems as if I am not living a very modern, 21st century lifestyle like how should be living. I don't worship or value technology, the entertainment industry, and the media altogether, but instead value the nature of literature, education and surplus amounts of knowledge- I just want to learn and know about things more and more. And because I live like this, I feel impotent and ignored by my schoolmates and people I have met, due to my very dull and serene nature. I do not partake in many conversations, because i find some to be very meaningless in context, and some to be of a very unorthodox nature ( there are always people talking in their own forms of language, like newspeak). The people of the 20th century are more advanced than me, and own various forms of techology such as the Ipod, Blackberry, and so forth and they use it for very different reasons and purposes. Phones are meant to talk to people distant from you, and Ipods should be used to listen to music, but the majority of people use them to watch videos, and text or play games. The library is a place for studying and reading, yet many people still waste their pitiful lives talking about nonsense things, and playing games on the internet. I wish for an era where people would just put down their remotes, their phones and Ipods and games, and instead open a book, enjoy the content of the book, and unleash their vivacious imaginations.

If people were a bit more considerate about their health, and less on technology, cars, and new brands of clothings, they'd be more beneficial in the end. If people were to value education, knowledge and work ethic a bit more, they would possibly end up with fewer nuisances in the end. If people valued true friendships and not popularity contests, they would make more and more friends who actually care about them and see their overall viewpoints. Right now, I see war, poverty and so many other acts of negligence, and am truly disgusted in nature. If people were to only use the technology they have for good and if they were to use them in a more meaningful manner, the world would be a better place.

Value of life

I can still remember that fond memory of me, as a 6 year old, sitting on the lap of a man dressed as Santa Clause during the Christmas season. The man asked me what i wanted for Christmas, and I responded to him, " A new toy car, a new video game, a new chess set," and so on. And ever since then, I've always valued such useless concrete objects such as toys, games and food, and failed to realize the importance of living safely and filling that life with gusto and zest. I was a very dull child back then, and didn't really value education or knowledge, and did not look after my own well-being. People who were coeval seemed to have a better quality of living compared to me. They were much happier, and much more healthy, patient, disciplined and knowledgeable of their surroundings. Quite the contrary, I was an unhealthy child who had the tendency of falling ill in the simplest situations and conditions, and was quite obese and sedentary in terms of physical activity. I had many close calls throughout my life, none of which I personally cherish or am proud of. I have nearly died 8 times, 4 due to pneumonia, 1 due to obesity and underactiveness, 1 due to carelessness, and twice due to pure stupidity.

Up until then, I had never once thought about how precious my life was. I never pondered upon the fact that I had only 1 life, and one that I could never get back had I lost it. There were certain cirumstances I knew which I couldn't change, such as my appearance and my race, but still tried to change. There were also other circumstances which I could've and should've changed, such as my attitude and my overall behaviour and responsibility, but still failed to change. And because I wasn't self-aware of my own flaws and mistakes, I ended up suffering both physically and mentally. I knew that I should've done and started on certain things, and knew I should've halted the continuaton of other activities, but still didn't consider doing them and instead just laid back and watched my life go to waste. Had I paid attention, and had I been more discreet and exuberant in nature in a more positive manner, I would've ended up in a better state. Remember that everything a person does counts for something, because their life is ticking and ticking away. Every passing second becomes a memory, and every time you waste your valuable time, you'll feel the side effects of it. Don't sit and do absolutely nothing and attempt to engage in meaningful and aidful tasks and activities. Don''t wait until the last second to do things, and be careful of yourself and surroundings at all times, because the slightest mistake can drastically and detrimentally change your life forever.

Most of all, never sit down and whine or moan about things you can't change. Don't spend your valuable time complaining and blaming, and instead find a way to raise yourself back up, and look at the positives and alternatives of things. Always take action, and always analyze the risks of every activity. When people are in dire need of help, or if you see them struggling and in despair, don't shy away from helping them or asking them what's wrong. If you see that one true love you like, don't shy away from talking to him or her, but know that he or she has a mind and life of his or her own, and consider his or her perspectives and values before you make any sort of move on him or her. In all, make your life a memorable one for those who are closest to you, and always remember that no amount of gold, money and fame can replace a living, breathing human being capable of having so much more, because once your life is endangered or scarred from a mesmerizing event, you'll start to appreciate and accept the fact that your life, body and mind should be at the optimum positions in terms of personal values and interests. Peace

Deeds and duties....

Whenever I'm around a group of people my age and of my social status, I see a pityful and omnipresent characteristic within them: They don't listen, and don't follow instructions. Now, this particular quote doesn't apply to every single individual on a daily basis, but I can absolutely guarantee that everyone at this point has been a hypocrite and has been ignorant of others at some point in their lives. When we were young, we were.. ribald. We disrespected and rebelled against our parents and people of authority. Most of us did it because we were not understanding, and to us, everything our parents told us to do was incoherent and useless in our minds. " Why do I have to do the dishes, my homework, read, go to bed early, eat my veggies, clean my room, ect." These are just some of the common things we replied with. Now that we're older, we realize that we have more responsibilities. We must complete work and get sleep for a successful life. We must pay attention in class and organize ourselves, and must help other people and connect with them to meet that need of communication and connection within ourselves. Back then, most things were either given, or earned. We had to work to get a treat, or we were given allowances. Now, everything should be earned. Nothing should be given to us because we must learn to get things ourselves in order to establish maturity.

Why is it, then, that we still break our simple promises we have to ourselves and other people? We promise to ourselves, that we'll get our readings and homework done. We promise that we'll talk with the people we need to talk to, and promise to study earlier, and promise to eat healthier, and promise to enjoy and respect the company of other people around us. But, inside, we hate it. We have this feeling f absolute laziness, and we need the incentiveness of others to aid us in completing and fulfilling our deeds. We constantly panic and worry when a deadline for something approaches, and we blame ourselves for not starting or doing something earlier, and promise that we'll get things done as early as possible the next time. When we grow and get older to the point where we are 100% responsible and mature, we must fulfill our promises, otherwise we will become the scapegoat within our company, circle of friends and family. So, when you make a promise to yourself to do something, think up a plan of how and when to do it, and how much you should be able to do or complete each day, or week. Be realistic, and never promise to do things which you know will be impossible to complete or do. Peace.

Temptations

Every once in a while, or rather every day, we are all exposed to things which make us want to have, and want to do or to be a part of. Whether it be something physical like food, or something visual, like a picture, there's always this little voice in our conscious mind which tells us over and over again: " take it, do it, be a part of it! Have it, it's fun and exciting, and enjoyable for you! It's good for you, and makes you feel soooo good!" Whatever it may be for us, we always end up wanting more of it, or less of it depending on our experiences and what we get in the end from it. Some people are tempted through seduction and enticement, by peer pressure. Some are tempted to do bad things, like to smoke, to drink, to have sex, amongst other things. Some people, despite having a laundry full of responsibilities, are tempted to go outside and play for the rest of the day, or to play video games, or to eat, or to watch tv, and so on. Some are tempted to eat or drink or have one more thing, such as a slice of cake, or a cup of water, or chips, through appearance, smell, taste and the media altogether. Sometimes we're tempted to do bad things like having sex because we are curious to know what it will feel like, and sometimes we're tempted because we want to go against authority, and common beliefs. Restrictions actually vamp up temptations. The more you're forced not to do something you like or want to do, the more tempted you may be in doing it altogether. Religions ban people to not do drugs, and to not kill or do things of a violent nature without reason, but sometimes there's that strong urge to do or take part in violent thing like fighting because of peer pressure, and pressure put on you in other ways altogether.

And sometimes, you can be tempted to do something because of trickory and false claims. Some people will tell you that things like cigarettes will be good for you, and others will tell you that it is good to beat people up due to the fact that it will gain you notoriety and fame/respect amongst the toughest people.Some people are also tempted to engage in risky behaviour due to inadequate knowledge or background of the things, or because they have had a stressful day and want to do something to soothe and relax their minds. All these situations are quite interesting, and it's even interesting to see how people have a difficult time being tempted to do beneficial things, such as cleaning up the earth, greeting others nicely, helping the homeless, and just speaking and being friendly altogether. How is it that people get so excited and ecstatic when being tempted to do bad things, but whine and moan and feel frustrated when they're tempted to do good things? Is it because humans are born to like bad things and to do bad things? And if we're truly born good, why does it feel so good to do bad things and to procratinate when we do them without anyone having authority over us? It's still interesting to me....

The atheist

Many of you people may have heard of stories similar to this one. This isn't exactly a serious story whatsoever, and isn't meant to cause a stir of commotion or controversy. This is just a random thought and story of mine. Once, there lived a man. This man was an everyday man who would take care of his kids, feed them, love and care for his wife, and provide for his family by working extensive hours at work, and getting the money to feed them. He had a very good life, and wanted his family to enjoy their lives as much as they could, and so they participated in numerous social activities and celebrations. They would attend concerts, performances, and sporting and celebrational events, and they would usually give in to the demands of their children, parent pending, of course. In other words, this man had an extraordinary life, full of bliss, accomplishments, and a bit of everything else. The only element missing from this man was religion. He had never, at his point really considered on what religion to be a part of, and considered himself an atheist, who didn't necessarily believe in God. He did understand most religions and there principles, but chose not to be a part of any one in particular. Now, this was a problem because at his work, he had many friends and co workers who were religious. There was Mike, who was a very strong Baptist Christian, and served at his church whenever he could. There was Nasir, who was a practicing Muslim, and didn't fail to pray at least 4-6 times a day, and usually read the Qu'ran whenever he could, at home. There was Gerald, A man who followed Judaism, and attended his synagogues. And there was Amir, who was a practicing Hindu, who not only prayed, but also brought his holy book to work as a guide. Sing-tao was another religious person, who was a practicing Buddhist, and believed in the concepts of Buddhism, and was typicaly seen at his temple near his neighborhood.

The man was interested in many of their religions, and he'd usually spend some quality time with each person, getting to know about their religion, the concepts, beliefs, and practices. He would always go home with a different view on life, and many, many views on who God was, and what his purpose was for his people. Some religions, like Judaism, christianity and Islam had similar principles, while other religions like Hinduism and Buddhism had many distinct principles and ideas. But they were generally all the same. All of them, he thought, centered around the idea of being peaceful and respectful, and to worship their lone Gods only, and to fulfill their commands or words of wisdom. When the man reached late adulthood, he still couldn't decide on which religion to choose. " if i were to choose one, the other guys would look at me with deep suspicion and would treat me with an austere look in their tones." He thought to himself. So, on his deathbed, he made a final statement to his family, and his friends. " I've lived an extremely successful and happy life, and have done what I could do. I hope my son and family will continue to be happy, and I have seen ups and downs of this world, and the people inhabiting it. " Before he went to sleep, his religious friends came in, and sat down beside him. the man had requested a prayer, but did not specify on who to pray for him. " I want all of you to pray for me." He told them. Confusion hit them, and the Christian asked him, " but if i were to pray for you, you'd have to accept Jesus christ as your saviour. the same with the other guys." And they all nodded in agreement. Finally, the man told them, " I have come to the realization that religion is what seperates us. It may bring a band of people together, but only in it's own segregated group. Every religion has it's own ideas, and differences, and this is what makes it impossible for everyone of every religion to live in total harmony and agreement. Tension always occur but you know what, in the end, it doesn't matter because all the religions look up at some sort of higher power for guidance. They're all the same to me. I'd really rather not choose one, so consider me a person who accepts all principles of religion in his life, and has an open minded view and perception on things, and chooses to understand, rather than to blame or protect." And with that, he peacefully died in his sleep.

Quality vs quantity

I've always considered one thing to shine and stand out in the midst of one hundred test papers, projects, players, students, kids, movies, teams, armies and men and women in general. Quality is, in the most simplest of definitions and explanations, something which makes an object or person valuable, unique, interesting and cunning. Quality is something which should be treasured, sought after and refined to the point where that person or thing can reach or be at its, his or her optimum potential and skill or strength. Quanitity, on the other hand is something which can be measured physically and numerically, but not necessarily visually and mentally. Something which is said to be very quantitative may be large in frame, size or numbers. An army can have 1000,000 men, a team can have more players and bench players than any other team in the sharing league. A pianist or person can practice their pieces or whatever they practice ( such as a sport, a form of art, a hobby) over and over extensively, and a student in school can write a 100 page essay. If, however, any of these above people and things lack quality, which makes their hard work and large units stand out due to unique and valuable attributes and skills, then their efforts are to be considered futile. I've heard of many stories, how a small group of armed men can take out an army, and how a hockey team full of team players can beat and thrash a team with the best stars in the league, and how there are kids and people you see everyday who, though they work extremely hard with no pauses or breaks, still have chinks and flaws in their character and overall abilities while some people who seem very unproductive and easy going have more awareness, talents and friends/accomplishments overall.

So is it good to only have quality, and leave out quantity? No, it isn't. Why have only 1 good friend who can truly relate to you and understand you when you can have a few more? Why only play one sport and excel at it when you can try many other sports and excel at them? Why choose to be good at only one piece or song when you can be good at many other pieces and songs? Why only establish a relationship with 1 girl or woman, and promise to never go for another, even when you could possibly leave her or lose her in the future? Always consider the pros of both quantity and quality, but remember that quality always comes first. On another note, many people have a hard time obtaining both. As you are reading this note right now, millions of people around the world, not just in africa or south asia, are dying. Why? Because they can't obtain the quality and quantity of food, water, education, safety and clothing. So, in all, it's important to have both quality and quantity, but remember why we have them for: To share and to give to other people so that they, too, will achieve their optimum potentials.

If only.....

I only wish that there would be a day where everything is serene, docile, calm, peaceful and harmonious in the world. A day without killings, conflicts, racism, accidents, and a day where everyone can be joyful, happy, cheerful, successful and fulfilled within. A day where there is no rain, and where laughter and bright smiles can be common throughout the cities and towns that you travel. A day where no one dies, and everyone can get a second opportunity to do or get something they would like to do. A day without evil thoughts, and a day where no one can be better, and where everyone can be on the same playing field. When will that day come, where people can make amends with each other, and finally settle their religious and ethical differences? A day where it doesn't matter if your white, black, yellow, brown, tall, small, handicapped, jewish, christian, muslim, hindu, buddhist, and where it doesn't matter if you are the strongest, the most beautiful and the smartest. Just a day where people can gather together and just.... have some fun. Christmas was supposed to be that day, same with all the other major holidays, but it seems as if people care more about the christmas spirit and worshipping a man they believe is authentic when he is a generically made up thing for children to believe in. If everyday were to be like this, there would be no need for religion, military, fighting and power or greed. But I only wish for one day, one day. Just one day is good enough for me, and hopefully that day will finally arrive before my life is expired, and before my vision deteriorates to the point of blindness, and where my mind will still be sane and clear enough to realize what exactly is going on.

I truly don't see it happening. As quoted by a famous person ( i forgot his name, but remember reading it once) " I wish for humans to have a life full of despair and suffering, not a life full of glee, bliss and peace because only then, will then truly value the meaning of life."

Your finest moments....

If you knew that today would be the very last day you'd exist as a live human being on the face of this earth, what would you do to make yourself memorable and satisfy yourself? Would you go and meet up with the people you know, and cherish or relive the good times you had together, and would you forgive the people you hate? Would you make your last day the happiest day of your life? Or would you treat it as any other normal day, go to work or school, come home, spend time with your family, and go to sleep? Would you finally make the changes you had promised to make, and quit smoking? Would you do something absolutely extraordinary such as skydiving, or would you make passionate love to the one who means the most to you, your sweetheart, wife, fiance, boy/girlfriend, husband? Would you cry and plead to the Lord to not let you die, and would you finally regret all the years of neglect, pain and hate? For many of us, we may choose many of the above options. For the ones who don't know and may never, ever know the day they die, they may not be as aware, and may live their day like any normal day. For some, every day may seem like it's their last day. Take Iraq, for example. I challenge ourselves, to just spend one day as a military soldier or citizen afoot in that country, and you may feel a much more melancholious surrounding and atmosphere. Danger and death lurks everywhere, people cannot be trusted and fear is in you almost 24/7. You wake up, live and sleep feeling and thinking of dying and being blown up or shot, and you may want to just treasure and hug your possessions and pictures of your family like it's going to be the last time you'll ever get to see them.

So thank God and thank the government and your families that you live in a country where you don't have to live in fear, and always remember that there are people who are in need of help, and fear for their lives every single day. Peace.

Recognition

Who and what exactly determines if a person should be the smartest, the most popular, the strongest and the best ever? Why do people choose to give certain awards to individuals, and disclude or reject other potential candidates or competitors who have the same skillset and talents at the same optimum level? Why do we feel happier around the people we only like, and why do we talk or respond to our best friends or who we think of as the "best" first, or more than other people? We sometimes worship them, and become very envious of them, wishing what they possess or have would be ours, and we sometimes take their opinions and thoughts more seriously than the opinions and thoughts of other people who just happen to have the same talents, uniqueness, and if people paid more attention: popularity. Sometimes, it's their appearance and how they talk or act: They are so elegant, attractive and "cool" looking that we automatically make them the most popular people or label them as the smartest, strongest, ect based on what they look like and what they say/what they can do. They do very stupid things and very bizzare things we wouldn've even imagine them doing, and we suddenly love them more than ever before. And when a poor, hapless little soul tries to do something he or she likes to do, everyone automatically discourages that person, scolds them, and ignores them since they feel as if they are of no importance and are instead, "trying too hard to do something which doesn't befit them." In other words, we think those people just plain suck.

I personally hate it. I'm sick and tired of seeing people being mistreated and judged based on " popularity" and appearance. Honest to God, i don't give a shit if you are the best. If you are considered the best by the majority of the human population and yet disrespect or ignore those who you believe are inferior to you, and do not even bother to spend quality time with them in a respectful and enjoyable manner for the both of you, I'll automatically see you as a fraud, a Judas, and a disgrace to what you stand for ( a hypocrite). I deeply value friendships, and now that i'm older, I never judge anyone and treat anyone with disrespect and disgust unless they are oblivious to me. So the conclusion: don't bother trying to gain recognition for the wrong reasons. I encourage you to pursue whatever you want to do, and encourage you guys to strive for success in whatever it is you believe you are strongest at, and hope the best for you to also strengthen what you are weak at but always remember to include the opinions of those who are truly subordinate to you, and instead of ignoring them and treating them as inferiors, be open minded and just spend some time to talk with them. Don't just do it and say, " alright, i'm done, let's continue." I encourage you to establish a good relationship with them, and encourage you to do it because you WANT to do it, not cause some guy named yang is tellin you that you HAVE to do it. Be connective and caring.

The plan

Whenever a person, group or team goes into a competition or a situation, they must always spend a minimal amount of their operative time planning of what it is they should do. When they plan, they try to think of the best solution(s) to the ongoing crisis or scenario, and must think it through very thoroughly- analyzing the risks associated, and what they expect to achieve. They must also, of course think of a "back up plan" in case everything goes totally the opposite way. For example, a basketball team must either huddle and discuss who will do what, and what they should specifically focus on in the game and who to guard and so forth. A team of firemen must discuss who will go in the house, and who will stay outside to hose down the flames or call for backup if needed. A SWAT team must analyze on where to enter a hostaged-held building, and how they should enter and deal with any threats they encounter. It is obviously much more beneficial to at least come up with some sort of rough plan when doing almost anything, because it'll get you more organized and will make transitions much more easier. If you do not execute any sort of plan effectively and instead wait until the last moment, you may be set up for disaster, as you may not think as rationally, and may end up making bad decisions without analyzing any sort of risks associated. Take for example, the first battle of Vimy Ridge, back in WW1. The Allied forces ( the French, British and other European Allies) tried to capture Vimy Ridge, which was, I believe in France, from the German Forces. The Germans had this place very well-defended because they had placed themselves on top of this hill-like path, which made it easier for them to target anyone coming up with machine gun nests or snipers. So, the Allies went in extremely unprepared, with no plan whatsoever, and ended up with massive amounts of casualties and ultimately, lost the war. A few years later, the Canadian forces, along with other Allied forces decided that it was their time to capture Vimy Ridge. The only difference was, THEY PLANNED ON WHAT TO DO. And since they knew that they were going up a slope, they used this interesting method of guerillia warfare to succeed, where they would dig trenches, and slowly move up, bit by bit until they had captured the German territory.

Now, the Canadians did have quite some casualties, but they still won the war, and were recognized more independently than before. But, one must remember that any plan, good or bad, easy or hard, has its consequences and downfalls. Sure, you can study for an exam for 2 months on a daily basis, do all the review work and ask the teacher all the questions but come exam day, you might feel extremely nervous, and may realize that you have either overstudied, or have not studied your weaker areas. You can prepare yourself for a fight, and train like a monster for 4 months but you may still leave that fight with bruises and cuts, or may be hit over and over, and may be thrown off your gameplan for the majority of the time. These things do happen quite typically, but the most important thing of planning anything is to prepare for the worst scenarios, because then, nothing will seem unexpected.

East side, west side, same tide, different ride............

Every now and then, I see and hear my parents yelling, screaming, complaining, and being plain obsessive and impulsive about the western culture, our ways of living and our viewpoints in general. They criticize, demoralize and vandalize all our freedom, our thoughts and will to try and do new things so that we can discover what it means to be part of a society like Canada, what it means to live in North America, and the experience and joy of learning and being a part of other cultural and social events and celebrations. " You can't do this, that, this, blah blah blah, nah nah nah. No playing sports- too dangerous. Get 100% on test, or you will be spanked. Study only, as everything else is worthless and bad. " And how can we forget, " No seeing or talking to girls, and marry and date only when 20 or older of age! Oh, only marry girl who is rich, and study well! no cross cultural marriage!" Of all these stupid things, i'd say 99% of them are kind of ridiculous and down right stupid. They are suppressing us of happiness, individualism and pride of being part of a heritage with it's own history and uniqueness. I only concur with the fact that education is important, and the fact that it is important to make friends with people who we can trust, and who won't hurt our own images. The other things, i don't agree with at all. I constantly have to persuade my parents to be a bit more open minded, and to appreciate the pros and not the cons of everything i like to do. What good things can't they see in sports? Weight lifting strengthens you, and i don't do it in an extreme fashion. Exercise and music are 2 things which are of importance in my life, and they see it as beings of a demonic and very harmful nature.

They believe that the things we like are worthless. When we wanna talk with girls or people of another race, they look at us with suspicion. When we wanna go somewhere to try something new, they disallow us to. Take this, as an example. I'm really interested in training, and fighting. I wanna do some boxing, amongst other things and they won't let me. They make me do karate, and they seem to be brainwashed because they believe that I should only focus on it since they're " paying for it" and that " i'm only doing it for fitness. " Alright, here's the deal. Martial arts were created for the purpose of killing those who want to kill you, and to defend yourself effectively. They think that if i were to train in boxing that i'd die or something. If they could just open their damn chinky eyes and see the positives of boxing, and other arts like muay thai or judo or brazillian jiu jitsu/wrestling, they'd realize how deficient a single art can be alone, by itself. Why not play sports and why eat pork all the fuckin time? why not read texts of the 19th and early 20th century and why criticize other cultures for without fully understanding their viewpoints? They treat us literally like fuckin dogs and babies when they should just let us off the leash cause we're older now, and understand things better than em. Maybe it's because of what they experienced back in their homelands, and i fuckin hate the fact that they don't have the will to change or accept things, or at least understand things. We have to practice their positive things, why can't they practice the positive things of a new society, like a true ASIAN-CANADIAN???

When i see em, they're not Asian Canadian. They're more like fuckin asian refugees with too much pride for their homeland of CHINA, Fuck, we're not in china anymore. IF you wanna be like that, go back and stay there for good, otherwise, don't stay here.

More than just a sport.....

Ones personality, character and behaviour can truly be exposed and shown when one engages in a team sport. if you do not fully know a person that well, you can see just what kind of person they may be when you invite them to play a sport with you. Whether it be basketball, floor hockey, soccer, it doesn't matter. All of these sports have similar goals ( to score on the opponent), and all require dedication, communication and teamwork in order for one team to succeed. When a player acts quite selfishly on the court or field, he or she may actually be a selfish and flamboyant person in the real life world. If the person is very physical and very rough, he or she may act very tough around other people and may have a sense of "machismo" ( being the big man or woman on campus). The person who cares about the team and is graceful in defeat may be a genuinely respectful and outgoing person in real life while the person who fusses and pouts in defeat may be a very irritable person in real life. And who can forget the team captain? This person may have a strong sense of leadership and courage in real life as well.

Please note that all these characteristics may not be correlated with behaviour in sport. Some people may just be competitive in nature, and may act more selfish and aggressive than they would in real life. Some people are not as good in sports, but act very immaturely and impulsive in real life. All in all, when your mother, father, family or friends encourage you to play a sport, try to agree and avoid being reluctant because as mentioned, playing team sports are good ways of building confidence, communicative skills and friendships with others.

Practice

Yeah, this is the note where i'm going to talk about one of my favourite topics: practice. You guys have probably been told at some point in your life that " if you practice, you'll be good," or that " practice always makes perfect." And, they're automatically correct because if you do not have the will to improve, and don't make efforts to succeed in life, you will ultimately end up screwing up big time, and falling behind everyone else. Regrets will be common, and you'll be left with the thought that you should've practiced or studied a bit more on that jump shot, that formula, that note, that piece, ect. The question which is lingering inside of my head as of this moment is: does it make a difference? I mean, we will always find, at some point in our precious lives, people who are either gifted or considered to be "naturals" or "prodigies." Those guys are born with certain qualities which allow them to do or attempt things much more easily. They can adapt more easily, and do not need to go through any sort of repetitive activities to improve themselves as they are already that good, smart or strong. Some athletes like Kobe bryant, Mats sundin, Justin Morneau, Peyton Manning and Manny pacquiao really commit to refining and improving their overall game, and so they practice and practice batting, shooting a puck, passing and punching every day of their lives. Other athletes are born with natural talent, and rely on their attributes to help them in a game or competition ( allen iverson is very quick and agile, Alexander ovechkin is extremely creative, and mike tyson relied on his brute physique and strength).

Statistically, you can see how practice can pay off. I saw it myself. A few years back, i hated practicing piano pieces and scales, and usually just played them once or twice, in a very sloppy manner. I was somehow still able to win in competitions because once I had signed up to compete, I would proceed to focus on the piece I had to play, and so I practiced that piece almost 50 times a day. A few years later, I started to flop in competitions, and I realized that I needed to remain consistent with my practice, and so I played my pieces over and over every day. It was frustrating at first, but I got used to it and my performances became much more satisfying to me. So, in all, it isn't about how much a person practices, but rather HOW that person practices, and what they can learn from their strengths and weaknesses.